Come Next Year...

          I've always believed that I am LUCKY. Being born under the Year of the Dragon, just about any year is my year. 2012 is special because this year falls under that Chinese zodiac. I am so blessed so far midway through my year. Let 2012 be a preparation for 2013 when I am planning to have new adventures. That's the key word - preparation. For now, planning is very important.

           I'll spend the rest of the years looking for my second job. I'm not really a fan of horoscopes but number 2 has always been lucky for me, hehe, so i trust my second job to be more fulfilling, more productive, more financially satisfying and all that. Let me stress the last description. I have siblings to send to school (one is an engineering student!) so there's no way I'll transfer to a lower-paying job regardless of what it may be. Who would want to demote herself? In fairness to my current job, most of the time I really get paid for doing a no-brainer. Something I don't plan to do for the rest of my career, though.


           I want to use my passport for the first time this year! Singapore would be the more realistic getaway. I also want that Michael Kors bag so badly but I have to pay debts which would be finished around November of this year. If heaven wont forbid, I want to accomplish paying my obligations and have my bag and my Asian trip this year. Who knows, I might just get so lucky.

The 16k bag that I want. Well, it's one of the two MK I want.

          What I am so thankful of is that the once-impossible things are happening to me now. My dreams, surprisingly, are all within my reach with just stronger push. I am excited again, wondering what  tomorrow will bring.


            I must admit that the last year was predictable. Everyday seemed a routine saved for a number of vacations I had. There was nothing to look forward to at work. My job isn't my everything and definitely not who I am but I spend eight hours a day there five times a week. I'm just plain bored. Imagine me getting promoted three times already but I do the same kind of work for two and a half years dealing with the same LGU, the same area, same excel files, etc. The company brings in a lot of changes but those are the changes I dont want. So instead of me blabbing about all the things I hate, I figured out it is time for me to move on to another job. Just to be fair to the company and of course, to myself.


          So next year for sure, I'll have that dream bag, the Asian trips (maybe I'll have two if I cant make the first one this year), and money for our house's renovation. This last strong southwest monsoon emphasized the age of our house and its need for maintenance. That's my new project next year. I have so many plans in my mind. I am ecstatic about those and just for that feeling of being alive, I thank the Lord. A slow and sure climb to the top is maybe what God has for me. Whatever it is, I will be happy to find out.

Another Valid I.D. On September 10, 2012

                 Yesterday was more than about renewal of PRC license –an i.d. I never really needed anyway. It was more about going back to the place I used to be on some three years ago. I remember the time when I also stood in lines in different windows of PRC Office trying my luck to be an engineer, unsure of how the exam is going to turn out. I remember the reason why I didn’t get my i.d. just until now and I realize how things are so different today. Not to be misconstrued as boastfulness, I’d like to view it more as recognition of the blessings I am receiving.  Thank God I have Php1,050.00 now to get my i.d.! Like the first three years after graduation, I still don’t have use of that card except for some bragging rights when someone sees it. But it was sweldo yesterday and I’ve got money to burn so who cares. And if I’ll be ask what the magic number is, it’s 51541! 

Like a Single Lady Again

                    My beau now has work. A better job than what I have in my opinion. I am so happy for him. That fact leads me to think that maybe good things really happen to good people. Weak had always been so nice to everyone. Good karma perhaps. Forgive me for thinking that some divinity should be included in the equation - it has always been logical to think that students who study hard get the grades and the jobs. I'm not putting him down obviously. Maybe I just wanna remind myself of the career change I really have to take this year. I should not be where I am right now-at least not anymore. I used to be "right here" then but not in the months and years to come. I have to move on. This year, which I have proclaimed my year, is supposedly for things that can correct the things I have done in the past. No more mistakes, self.
                     Saturdays and Sundays were usually so short that I had to go absent very often during Mondays from work just to spend more time with Weak. I used to complain on how difficult it is to squeeze in time for myself, my family and my love life to those two days. Now, for the 2nd week, it still is Saturday but I wanna go to work already. It has never happened to me for more than a year I guess. I suddenly got excited to work again. I know why.
                     I have to keep myself busy. For all I know, I'm somewhat in a long-distance relationship now. I haven't seen Weak for more than a week now and I still don't know when I'll see him. His job required him to travel whenever, wherever. His job doesn't recognizes weekends. It just has deadlines to meet. What's good and what I'm glad of - actually close to getting envious of - is that he gets to roam around the Philippines. It's something I wanted for in my job, the ideal part of being an ECE. The job although still unstable pays well for an entry level.
                     I'm applying for jobs online now. Before I really swore I will not get back to entry level again but if what I'll get compensates more than what I make now, who cares? I'll gladly want to be a cadet once again. This time for the course I devoted years with. I actually consider going abroad but considering Weak weighs more. Yeah, I waited for him to get work and earn his own money; delayed the trips I could have taken months and years ago just so he could come with me. But now he sets out on his own for his job leaving me inevitably. But yes, I still can't leave him. If I'll go, we will go together. I've waited this long anyway.
                     It feels so wrong now. This job I have. For years I've tried to convince myself I can make right things come out of it but to my dismay I haven't. Things have changed for the good but poor me, I can't afford to be content with those changes. There's gotta be something more, better. This is my year! There could be no other better time to make brave changes than now.
                     I've also almost got all the rewards that making me hold on a little longer with this job. I actually expected for double of what I'll get but this is life.No regrets, just move on.
                     Opportunities really come my way. There's this opportunity of starting my own little business. Fingers crossed this could happen and bear fruits. I am in dire need of things to get busy with. I need a life not ran by my love life. Plus I need the money. Please, God, lead the way.
                    Destiny is not the path given to us; it is the path we choose. With mine, I choose to let God guide me to the path I have to choose.